Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year of fiber fun

 Christmas is over for most folks but being the defective perfectionist that I am....I still have packages to mail . Why ? Well, my family would say it is because I am forgetful, inconsiderate or irresponsible but they would only be half right . The reality is that I have been thinking of them and Christmas for the past 12 months and made several items with them in mind . The problem for me is that I have these nagging self doubts that inhibit me from just popping the items into the post and knowing they will like them . Instead, I critically look at each completed item and find fault...colors or textures they wont like or will clash with their decorating . Will these items I have struggled to make end up in a thrift store donation ? These thoughts are complicated by the reality that I don't know my family better . The reason for this is to complicated to go into but makes the Holidays a rather unpleasant time for me . Each item I make carries the unrealistic weight of being my only way of saying...."I think of you and care about you ". .....unfortunately, my lateness in posting gifts actually gives them the opposite impression .

This year, I actually made a movie and sent emails asking my family to please pick something they would like for me to send so I could at leat feel that the item had a willing receiver . The only family member who responded was my mother who said that I didn't need to send anything but a card . In my heart I would like to believe that she is just being her usual selfless self and not wanting to take items away that I might eventually sell and make money from . But some part of me just wishes that she could say...."Hey, I love that animal/scarf,etc and would love to have something around to remind me of you and how proud I am of your talent ".

So, to the family of other aspies....I am opening my heart to you to let you know that aspies do have feelings that we are often not able to express or express in ways that seem contrary to your logic .

This is the latest addition to my animals and though not intentional, reminds me of a lion cub . Behind him is a scarf I designed for my mother in law.....I have made her several that I deemed "not good enough" and now wonder if even this one has to dark of colors ....dang .

 Although, I have no torso to pose , it is actually meant as a shoulder shawl .
 It's hard to show here but I felted two separate layers of chiffon here so it has different colors on each side that I hope compliment each other well .
 The turquoise is newly dyed last week using a rust mix to give an earth and water look and she lives in Florida so I wanted to make it as light weight as possible using just the chiffon and tencel merino blend .
 I absolutely love the texture of the merino and tencel together . I also added just small bits of silk fiber on top to add even more shine to the blend .
 Below is how I spent most of last week . I dyes both silk bell/caps(greens) , mohair and wool and tencel and merino and straight merino . This is just a bit of the dying I did...several more pounds in the car yet to be unpacked including some lovely purple merino/tencel .
 Below is a close up of the silk bells but I can't really capture the almost florescent effect but wanted to share how I did it . I actually soaked the bell in sunflower yellow dye before I added the blue and bit of magenta spots . I think this would work as well using any lighter base dye with spot dying complimentary darker colors .
 Below is a bible  bag I made for my sister in law who was recently ordained . This is my first bag using a resist and built in handle . her favorite colors are red and green so I used a base of dark red Shetland for durability and some hand made merino prefelt hearts that laid on top ,(and  look more like leaves then hearts but still interesting contrast) . I think this bag turned out much thicker then I had imagined but certainly will be durable . Now, if I can just except it's imperfections and get it in the mail before next Christmas is here .

 Below is the decadence that will ring in the New Year . We don't normally eat this unhealthy but it these will be accompanied by a nice big salad to help counterbalance .
Wishing you all a Happy New Year full of experiments, treats and love .


  1. I know exactly what it is like with family members like that. My family and I don't speak much due to troubles. But when it comes to Holidays it is always an effort, even though its not meant to be? but out of it though at least you got to spend it making things and what lovely things! I'm still getting the hang of wet felting. I'm obsessed with needle felting though lol
    *hugs* Happy holidays

  2. Thanks for the comment and hug .Sometimes it is seems so odd that strangers read my blog but my own family has no interest . At least that gives me the freedom to be honest (and saves me the cost of therapy ).

  3. sorry to hear of this difficulty for you. i usually have exactly the same dilemma - i spend a lot of time thinking of hand-made gifts for family and friends, a lot of time making them and then think that they are not good enough and will not be appreciated, all i can hear is the imagined criticsm for sending them something that looks like it was made by a three year old child!

    this year, i bought gifts for eveyone instead of making them. it didn't feel the same but it did save me from the awful feelings above.

    i hope 2011 is a wonderful year for you :)x

  4. Thanks, glad I am not the only one who struggles with this...(misery loves company and all that )...Even when I buy the gifts I worry they wont like them...I usually do better when I send gift cards but I really wanted to do something more personal this year .



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